Hi

It is a busy week. I am learning somethings about myself and the people in my life. Maybe it is time for me to grow up and reach for my dreams. No matter what happens. I want to have children get married and have a husband that would give me the world if he could

Pot Roast

I took a chance and cooked a Pot Roast with butter beans and vetagable rice. It was good but the roast was a little over cooked. I tired to soften the meat up with beer and water and letting it slow cook. It worked a little but the meat was not as soft as I wanted it to be. Oh well leason learned. I tired and I will keep on trying

Wedsday

This has been an unpredickable week. I am working on writing a book and keeping everything going. Desite how everything is going I am proud of myself for not setting. I thank God for giving me the strengh and the courage to keep going on no matter what

Recipe

I am working on a new pasta recipe. I hope it works. This has been a busy but good work. I want to do so much more. Things did now work out with me and Cliff and that's okay. I need a man in my life that wants to be there and not just for a booty good call. Hopefully I will find the right one soon

Things happen

I am working on writing a book. It is something I have wanted to do for a while but now I finally have a chance to do it. When I was growing up people alway tried to tell me who I could be and what I would become Well today I am living my life by my terms with Gods help. I believe in the Lord and whatever will happen will happen

Typler Perry

I went to see Typler Perry on Tuesday at teh Savannah Civil Center. It was a great show. The cast and crew were great. I had to work that day and had to rush to get home and take a bath. I looked and smelled great. Typler Perry is a tall man. He took time to do the play right and talk to the audince. He changed my life. When he said instead of asking God for a good man. Which will only break your heart again. Say God your way is fine with me. It was true. We all have issues but we have to move pass them to and live in the here and now. Noone is going to do it for us. If dont have the life I want it is my fault for putting everyones need ahead of my own. It is time I stop hidind behind my family and go out and do something I have wanted to do for a while. I love my seld and God. I am going to start working on my book today. If Typler Perry can do it anyone can do it

The supries

This has been a busy weekend. I got my hair done. I like it. It has red highlights in it. Today I went to church. It was nice hearing the Preacher preach. I was cheching the internet and found out Marie Wilson. Maybe leaving As The World Turns. It is a good Soap Opera. That will be coming to and end in Septermger. I was hurt at first because I joined a fan board. Where the members are doing everything they can to support her and Roger Howarth. Both whom are married and are rumored to be having an affair. It does not matter to who goes on in peoples personal lives. It is just how they handle it. Marie Wilson was on a radio tonight and did not answer any about wheather she was staying or living the show. I hope it is not true. It would be great if she stayed on the show until the end. This whole thing with Marie Wilson has taught me a very vaule able leason. You have always got to be on looking for your next job and keep people talking about you. She said she was adductioning for other parts and talking to people she has not talked to in years. I wish her much Lucy and Success. I hope she gets everything she wants

Food

I cooked some ribs with a dry rub and some broccoli cheese rice. The ribs turned out great. I slow cooked them six hours before adding the Bar-B-Q sauce. It was great all hot and spicy. This recipe is one for the books

Monday

Today is Monday. For most people it is the start of the work week and a busy week it is going to be but I have no complains. I am just really for the week end. Who knows maybe I will learn something new this week

Why

This has been a busy week and it is only Friday. I try to do the right thing and play by someone Else's rules but that does not work for me. I have a voice and will stand up for myself and my dreams. Some people think I am control and others are scared of me for some reason. The truth is I don't care what people think about me. I have to be able to love and respect myself that is the most important thing to me. I believe if you watch people long enough they will show you rather they can be trusted and if I cant trust you I don't need. If I can trust you and you prove that. There is nothing I wont do for you. I am tired. Getting ready for a busy Easter weekend. Maybe I will get lucky and start writing that book this weekend

This day

YesterDay was great because I got to work with food which is my passion. I cant wait to see where this takes me

This weekend

This has been a fun weekend. Saturday I was supports to go out with a friend to a cab but she did not answer her phone when I called to I ended up going shopping and having lunch by myself which was cool.I got some really nice cloths on sale and even brought a shrift for church. My brother called Saturday. He sounded like he was worried about something. We talked for a few Min's and I came home and got really to go out. I got lucky the club I went to had a male stripper night. I got in for free and had to peach drinks. I was shocked to run into ladies I know at the club. This guy did not start talking to me until I pulled out some money to pay for my drinks. Some women wanted me to take pictures of them and I did it was cool. I left and went home because I wanted to go to church on Sunday. I woke up with a hardtack and drank some water. I with to Church with the family. We ence when to McDonald's for food and coffee and shopped to the store to pick up stuff for next week. I am back at home cooking and cleaning. It was nice seeing the family at church. Someone said something nice about my smile and that was great, I am working on this recipe for a cake with homemade frosting

The start of the week

Today is Monday. Over the weekend I drank some wine and very cook beer mixed togather, worked and cooked dinner. However the thing that supried me most about this weekend was my so-called mother saying she could not go through this again. I was sleeping and she woke me up for that BS. It seems like my best friend was right once again. My mother has a way of making everything about her but she afraid of everything. I quess that gives her the right to pass judgment on everyone else. I am glad we are so different. I would never treat people the way she does. She is making it cear she is not going to change and at the point. I being to think my bestfriend is right. I am tired of trying to save everyone and have their backs when all they do is talk about me and point the figer at me when something goes wrong. Time for me to get some better friends and a better life with Gods help

Today

Yesterday alot of stuff happened and I stood up for myself. I got my passion back I know what I love to do. I finshed my cateering program and will be getting my degree soon.This is so cool. Who knows maybe I will write a book about it

Life

It was a busy day. I learned a few things. Hopefully I will put them to go use

Today

This is the first time in A long time I am not looking forward to going to work. I like what I do but I dont see anyway to move up. Unless I work in another department. I am always going to work and giving a 100% sometimes my best does not seem good enough. I think God for all the leasons I have learned and for one of my ex-boss. He told me these people will eat you up and split you out. I did not believe him but when he left. He and a few other bosses encourged me to go back to school and get my degree. Which I am working on. I want to do something I love not go to work and see people who look they they would rather be somewhere else. The is going to be a something that I have to go through so I can be happy with the sucess that I have earned. I will get there because I am not giving up